last night I had dance and it was just so intense. someone got hurt and competition is a week away so that's not good at all. my week has been pretty crazy and so has life lately but it has gotten better. im excited for competition cause my team and for my solo is going to rock! all of the teams will. im really not too nervous about it. i am but in a good way. i don't feel much pressure than i did when i was competitng for cheer and gymnastics and dance a while while back. so it will be good. my mommy sewed my straps for my dress for my solo. it's to Carrie Underwood's "Starts with Goodbye." I'm also happy that the second week of April I will be done with DBT which means I won't have to leave dance early on Thursdays anymore and just have to go once a week on Wednesday! Yay. 25 weeks it will have been since I started by the time I am done. UI have changed a lot, learned some new skilss but at the same time some things have gotten worse. But I'm still working on them at least. It's just hard to keep it going. I have lost weight which makes me very ahppy cause I lost like 10 now or so in the past two weeks. So i'm getting closer to my goal!!!! yayay....but others say it's not good and I don't need to loose weight especially cuz I'm in rwecovery supposedly still. Obviously right now I don't want to recover hence me restricting as much as possible and loosing weight rapidly but at least I am eating this time. Idk. it's really confusing to me. i don't want to end up back at the hospital again or more treatment. idk. right now I'm taking things one day at a time. I have sooo much on my plate so that's all I can do.
♥ Dev
