Inner Guru

I had to write a journal for my yoga class, as I do every week. This is a modified version of that that I though I would share with you guys. It really touched me and made me think this week. Hope you enjoy :)
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When I think of the words “inner guru”, in simplest sense inner spiritual teacher, there are many thoughts that come to my mind. For me, my “inner guru” is a combination of many different part of me: heart (physical and spiritual), mind, soul (physical and spiritual), past teachings, and conscience. Each of these has meaning and has something to contribute; putting them altogether however something that I still cannot explain but it is has helped guide me. I am not perfect and my inner guru doesn’t tell me the right things to do but I think that everything, every experience in life whether good or bad has a lesson. I feel that within that lesson there is something good within it, whether that is “seen” that second, hour or ten years away. There is another strong belief within me.

Everything happens for a reason. I feel that both my heart and soul’s physical nature allow me to discover and participate in some of the talents and hobbies that I have such as dance, swimming and yoga. If you look into the spiritual nature of those two let me contemplate decisions and life choices. My spiritual soul has also connected me to God, who has been a huge source of strength for me through many aspects of my life, my biggest being my recovery. My mind contributes intellectually in that it has the capacity to learn, recall and grow. My past experiences have helped me further in life. I have learned from my mistakes and improved on my successes in order to succeed in the future. My conscience is always there, one thing is I cannot lie. If I lie I laugh, first of all.

I think somewhere inside that to many questions, we do have the answers. I think it depends on how you look at it though. I also think that the answers may not appear right away. I think part of it is patience and persistence. I think also, for me, I need my heart (physical and spiritual), mind, soul (physical and spiritual), past teachings, and conscience. I think that without all of them I can still find some of the answers but not all of them. I think it depends but with all of them together I can answer anything.

So I if your reading this maybe take a second and think about your "inner guru" and what part it plays for you in your life. The good and the bad and how it can help you achieve and succeed in the further. What do you think? Do we have the answers within?

<3 Dev

I have a dream

I have a dream and I am pursuing it. I am following my heart and doing what it says. I had this idea to do a walk for NEDA (National Eating Disorders Association). So today I registered to do one and I am doing it the last weekend of September. I hope to get Thom out here to speak at Westminster night before and day of. I want to raise awareness about eating disorders because they are a problem and people need to be aware of how much they impact people lives. They are more common then people think. According to NEDA, as many as 10 MILLION FEMALES AND NEARLY 1 MILLION MALES ARE FIGHTING THIS LIFE AND DEALH BATTLE WITH ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA EVERY DAY!

Also as far as research goes there are 10 million affected by eating disorders and 4.5 million suffering from Alzheimer's and 2.2 suffering from Schizophrenia yet on $.70 per individual is spent on research compared to $159 for Schizophrenia, a difference of $158.30. This is ridiculous. Eating disorders kill and most can't even seek treatment due to insurance unwilling to cover adequate treatment which I wont even bother to go into as I could rant about that for hours. I personally have gone through this so it is something I am passionate about so I am excited. So it will be good.

So I am in the early stages of planning this. Going to enlist others to help me...hopefully(if you live in SLC and want to help let me know please)! I am allowing 5 months almost 6 to plan this which is good. It will allow me to get good sponsors, plan awesome t-shirts and stuff, get the speaking part ready, the where it will be (most likely Sugar House park), and all of the logistics. It will be fun. I will have fun and it is a good cause. I have wanted to do this in a while. I know many will attend. It will be great! I believe in myself. I am proud I am doing this. I am nervous as well but I will ask for help, as needed. <3